The Squeaker Toy...

As of 3:56 p.m....today is a brighter day! Do I still need to wash my car? Yes. Should I have ran again today? Definitely! *still might get out there* Did Bella chew crators into my phone this morning? Ummm, wish I didn't have to say yes to that... But, after pretty close to a week of feeling moody and unmotivated, I am almost 100 percent better and ready to get back in the game!

Insert a moment of pause [here] because the house is entirely too quite...Must go check on my teething horse, Bella...

Okay! Turns out all is well...Bella was just swallowing our cats head, yet again while squeezing the life out of him...However, two days ago I found the most awesome diversion other then the cats head; a cloth bone! Who would have guessed...Only problem is, it wasn't JUST a big hit with her, but Peanut as well...Those two would go back and forth all day long if I'd let them; stealing it from one, to turn around and be stolen from the other...The important thing is, I FINALLY FOUND A TOY SHE HASN'T GOTTEN BORED OF! Check out the annoying squeaker it has:p Oh, and my non made up face complete with ratty hair...It wasn't planned but I went with it, HA!

when I play this video back to her she immediately grabs her squeeking bone and trys to out do herself in the video...BWAH A HA HA!

But I believe I owe a bit of an update! We'll start with the biggest news I delivered which was me persuing web design...I'm sure you took note of my use of was. Meaning its not looking too good! To be quite honest, I have completely backed off on it. Robert asked me why, the other day, and so I put some thought into it and came to the conclusion that I feel lost. Not with the material or the learning part so much but how to go about making it work for me once I have the knowledge...I've been talking to a lot of people in this field and it seems to me that I'm never going to be able to work for myself with only knowing web design. Building a web site isn't just a one man show...A misconception I obviously had. So while the wind has been taken out of my sails, I still plan to learn web design, but in a more watered down form. I'll continue to think about what I could do in the future for self employed income and hopefully stumble upon something great!

In other news, I finally feel like I'm learning to balance things, i.e my puppy, running, work, husband, blogging ect...My mistake was feeling like it all had to be perfect and that I had to give 100 percent ALL the time...This only left me feeling over whelmed and very much like a failure when I couldn't meet the challenge...So from here on out, I will continue to have expectations for myself, but will not keep setting myself up for failure with this perfect way of living...

Finally, I'll leave you with this *A, B or C* quiz about me:p

"What job did I hold at the age of 21?"

(A) TJ MAXX associate

(B) Fair Carny

(C) Librarian's Assistant

A Big Announcement!

And I'll say it again, " I have a big announcement! But before I delve into that, I should say, "I've heard and read all of your pleas for a deeper explanation as to Bella's (almost) demise and also, about my current mood/thoughts on my sisters up coming wedding. My answer, "I am working on drafts for them both, as they are long reads that need to be written with much thought, and I promise to post them as soon as they are finished:)

NOW, onto the really big news!

I'd wager that most of you know what this book is about, being that we're all bloggers here on the World Wide Web, but the question is, how does it tie into my really big news!?! Well between the years of turning sixteen and up until now, I have been turning stone after stone over in my head, trying to pin point a focus of study that would fit me best. I've toyed with the idea of a teacher, a paramedic and actually did go to school for this, but never finished, and so on... I think most everyone goes through this at some point until they find what they've been searching for. However, for the past few months, under the surface of my everyday life, I've been antsy and prickly feeling like I was really close to the answer yet, struggling with that, just out of my reach type feeling and it was so frustrating; Until two nights ago...One of those well worn stones hit me square in the forehead! After some late night research and a long talk with the hubs, I have decided to pursue a career in Web Design! This stuff just fascinates me, especially writing HTML and CSS. Hence, the ridiculous grin why I'm holding up a book that promises to reveal all. HOWEVER, there is a really frightening part...I am going to become a self taught Web Designer...Ekk! Come to find out, anyone can become a Web Designer/Graphic Designer. A degree is not required to break into these fields, but no doubt, would greatly help! All you need is the patience to succeed, the right software and DIY books. A Mac wouldn't hurt either:p Oh, and my glasses back so I can see again!

Rest assured though, I do have a realistic four year plan mapped out to achieve this. Right about the time Robert and I plan for kids, I should have a solid foundation in Web/Graphic Design right in time to start my next big project; starting my own business! That side of it is still a bit fuzzy as I am trying to focus more on the skills that will get me there, but it is the goal I have for the finish line:) If any of you have input about this plan, or thoughts and advise on where to start, PLEASE let em rip! At this point, I am just trying to collect information about where to begin i.e web design? Or, get a solid footing in graphic design first as they both greatly correlate.

FYI: This post is very watered down compaired to my excitment and reasons for wanting to be a web designer, but I'm not wanting to write a book that weighs more than the average human, so I will stop here:) Thank you all for listening and joining in on my excitment, as I know you will! Sleep tight y'all. I'm off to catch a few zzzzz's:)