Disappointed...

So tonight I tried my hand at yoga for the first time... And I'm really upset to say that, "I HATE IT!" Is this normal? Is 1.5 hours of yoga also normal? Sitting down to reflect on why, exactly, I hate it I've come up with this...I simply do not have the attention span to sit, stand, squat and pose for 1.5 hours!!!! I felt like such a five year old tonight...I even tried making the atmosphere...Lite candles, dark room, calm the mind...Annnnnnnd, nothing...Yup I still hate it! I really wanted to be a yoga chic...I REALLY DID! They just seem so neat, centered and clam. Sigh...But alas, this is one thing that's just not my cup'o tea... P90X wants me to do this once a week, so instead of the 1.5 hours I'm going to shoot for 30 minutes (just because I know the stretching is good for me) then do something else, like kick boxing!!! It was kind of cool, however, to learn that I'm challenged and cannot sit still...God love me:) And I always thought I was the calm, boring one...

Our Very Own Hurt In A Box...P90X!

Two days ago R and I made a decision that will hopefully change our lives and bodies forever! We hopped on the P90X band wagon with complete abandon never thinking to look back! We had discussed it for a few weeks, hemming and hawing because of the $125.00 it takes to get the program. Not to mention the cost of weights and a pull up bar. These are a must have to complete this program. Well yesterday, our very own hurt in a box showed up all pretty and sealed ready to be used. No time like the present! So after a quick trip to the PX for some weights, which I love! We commenced operation P90X!

Okay, but real quick, gonna take a detour and show you these AWESOME weights we got. Because they're so cool! Already I'm sounding like a fitness nerd, but I don't care:) These are the new dumb bells from Bow Flex! Or at least they're new to me:) This is how they look in the stand. Each one weighing in at 52.5 pounds.

NOW, the cool thing is, these weights can go from 5lbs to 52.5lbs all with just the turn of a dial!!!! So in a nut shell, you have a complete set of weights all in just two dumb bells and not a whole rack taking up space! How AWESOME is that!!! Okay, moving on:)

So, yesterday was our first day working the program and guys...It hurts...But its so good! This is a fitness challenge that is broken up into 90 days. By the end, supposedly, your a lean mean muscle machine! R and I both took our "before" photos and yes, that was depressing but I can't wait to see the transformation! I'm really hoping to come away from this with bigger shoulders and arms, a tight butt and some nice muscled legs...P90X promises this as long as I keep pushing play and BRING IT each time! Lol...I'll definitely give ya'll up dates and will certainly post our 1,30,60 and 90 day photos when we're done! Hope this wasn't too boring, but I'm just really pumped! Hope everyone is having a fabulous Monday:)

Caio!

My Only Reason??? I Can't Get a Tan...

This Saturday it will have been three weeks since I began operation live healthy, loose weight. So far??? I've been having a really good time! I know, I know...Don't hate me for saying that. And also, don't get the wrong idea! There have been days were I think this sucks. I mean come on, cutting calories and turning a blind eye to the foods we like best is no easy task! But there's nothing better then weigh in morning. when you wake up and the first thing you do is climb on your scale, holding absolutely still, while anxiously waiting for that magic number. You know, the one you've been working so hard towards that whole week??? When you finally get it, Your whole body seems to smile! You feel great. Nothing can bring you down... You have to agree because I know you know what I'm talking about!!! Dieting is hard people, but its also worth every second for those moments...In my opinion:) These past three weeks I have really come a live. My body feels better in every way! I noticed today that, since I've started, I haven't taken one nap!!! If you knew me, you'd know how much I love/need naps and how jaw dropping this is...My body gets so tired sometimes...Its weird. even on days where I haven't done anything really...I now know that my diet has been the problem all along...Also I've realized that I have a kick ass metabolism! I've just been burying it so heavily in fats, carbs and calories that it can never catch up! Taking the time to track my nutrition and research the foods that I eat has opened my eyes to this. I think it would be safe to say that I was on a 4,000 calorie diet a day, easy...Kinda makes me feel sorry for the poor little guy! I can visualize him working so hard for me and what do I do???? Treat him like crap and feed him crap...Well I'm done...This switch is for life...It feels so good to have a plan and a goal again...Just today, I felt something switch inside me. I had a serious want to be built! To be one of those girls that people look at and think "wow" she must workout...I see girls like that a lot and I immediately think how much I suck and how I'm wasting my best years on doing nothing to get there too! So far I've lost a total of five pounds in the past 2.5 weeks! After I loose this last 8 pounds, I'm onto operation get built...No joke! I'm really excited to start this journey and see where it takes me...Who knows, body competitions might even be in my future! Okay, not really...Lol... But only because I would never want to be that solid. Okay, that's a lie. The real reason is I cannot get a tan to save my life! When have you ever seen a competitor without a tan???? HELLO!

I'll leave you with that and say "thanks for listening y'all." I'm gonna call it an evening before much later. Hubs is dragging me to Atlanta tomorrow morning at 4:00 a.m! About a 1.5 hour drive from here. Yeah, as much as I like naps I also like to sleep in! 4:00 a.m comes early, so nite everyone and I hope your week is going just as well as mine, if not better!

P.S, Here is the link to my newest vlogs over at Sparkpeople, incase your interested in hearing how much I say "ummm" in the space of five minutes:p

First Vlog!

For those of you who might be curious, here is a link to my first vlog to kick off this weight loss plan! I'll try to post links to them each week when I weigh in. There kind of boring so I won't be hurt if you don't watch:p Just wanted to give ya that option!

Past Mistakes, New Beginnings!

I've been debating with myself whether or not to do a post about this particular subject. Its kind of a sore note where most of my family are concerned, so I feel trepid in writing this. However, I am much older now and I feel that I am more prepared to do it right this time.

Ever since R and I started dating about 2.5 years ago, my weight has slowly been creeping up the scale to the point where I am now 133 lbs. I say this with a cringe because I have never been that heavy! I am 5'6" and mostly, ever since I was 16 I've weighed anywhere from 115-120. I am willing to admit that at 115 I truly WAS hurting my body. I felt so weak and unhealthy. But for the sake of being skinny I starved myself. Yes, I had the mind set of an anorexic girl, but I really am thankful to my family. They gave me such a hard time and hard talks that it stopped me from getting smaller. I really caused my family a lot of worry in those years, Hence the reason for all their sour feelings toward me loosing weight. I know y'all are not them, but I still can't help feeling worried about speaking out with wanting to loose. I'm not over weight by no means. I know that. But people see that too and their automatic response is "Girl, your already skinny! you don't need to loose weight!" I know that people, I really do...I just don't feel my best at this weight. I do have love handles now. My ass and thighs have a few more pounds to love on. Seriously, I don't want to feel my thighs kissing one another when I walk and I hate that my jeans ride to low now because there's more junk in the trunk to cover! I truly feel I am more mature now and can handle the weight loss, but also know when to stop and say, "hey, you look good."

So why not just loose the weight and never say a word? Well, I want to keep myself accountable for loosing the weight and also accountable for when its time to stop. I think my husband is a bit worried himself. Mostly because he has heard me and family talk about my issues in the past. I need to do this though. For me and for all of those that I put though this. I need to show myself and others that I can loose weight but be healthy and know when to stop.

The goal is to loose 13 pounds; Bringing my weight down to 120 by early April or late April. I have joined a website called Sparkpeople.com where I am logging my calories, fats, carbs and protein as well as my cardio workouts. This website is honest and tells you when your over eating in an area and also when you need to eat more in those areas. I.e say I'm not eating enough fat grams. It lets me know, then also explains why I need them. This site is really showing me where I could do better and how to eat balanced meals. I'm staying within a 1200-1500 calorie diet. No more the 30 fat grams a day. I'm working out three times a week for thirty minutes. Drinking much more water and staying away from cokes, sweet tea and the likes. So far I feel great! I am allowing myself one cheat day every two weeks. I'm doing this mostly to counter act being overly focused and to show myself I can break away and be bad:) I have been on this program for six days and I cannot wait to weigh in this Saturday! I am also doing video blogs on Sparkpeople every week to help stay on track. Two of my sisters in Tennessee are doing this with me, so the Vlogs will help us stay in touch and motivate one another. I'm not sure if you can view my blog over there without becoming a member, but I will give y'all up dates here as well as over there.

Eating healthy and exercising regularly is not something I've tried all at once so this will be a transition:)I will continue to blog here about my regular life and happenings, but I am adding the weight loss program too, so hope you don't mind reading! I hope all of you had a wonderful first week in the new year! Don't be afraid to comment and give me ideas! I'd love to hear what you think about the program and where I could do better; meaning extra cardio here, more calories there or even just your success stories! Or if you think I'm crazy all together:p Love hearing from you guys!

Caio for now!